My spiritual awakening came in April 1990 with the passing into spirit of my brother, Richard. He was on life support and it was due to be switched off. His spirirt touched me as I whispered into his ear ‘ You’re going on a journey, don’t be afraid. Go into the light’. He was donating his organs and I said what I thought was my last goodbye to Richard. I don’t know why I said this as at the time I was unaware of the light and had no interest or belief in a God, Angels or Saints or the world of Spirit.

What happened that day changed me and the way I live my life. As his spirit-self touched me (even passed through me?) I became aware of a feeling, a serene, peaceful, loving and comforting feeling. A divine presence enveloped me. I left Richards bedside smiling and knowing, knowing everything was all right. Richard was only passing into a new existence.

I had felt that same divine presence before but had since lost it or forgot it. I was close to drowning in the river Liffey about 12 years prior to Richards passing. This time I did not lose it. I still carry it. I live it, I love it, I am it and I offer it to anyone who seeks it.

In the intervening years I have learned and used different methods to connect to spirit for guidance and healing including Tarot and Angel cards, hands on healing and Shamanisim, all of which came naturally and quickly to me like I was remembering rather then learning! Each one of these tools was also taking me deeper on my journey into spirit. I had many spirit guides along the way however, they were all leading me in the same direction towards oneness, to an understanding and experience where names, faces and titles are meaningless. Where belonging to life itself, sharing itself with itself, is stronger than life separated into individual parts, opposing and competing with each other. Where knowing by far supersedes knowledge and feeling has replaced thinking. Where peace, love, joy and gratitude are my true nature, where being spiritual is infinitely and eternally more important than being human.

I have learned that I have to practice ‘being aware’ in order to acheive and stay near my natural state, being aware of me, my thoughts, my emotions and my feelings, my actions and my state of mind. In so doing I myself have learned of a new or different way of seeing life and of living it.